After the blur that was the start of the year with flu and work and actually having a life, I seem to have become way,way behind in keep this blog updated – not that I have not penned things just sometimes not things I can really share.
No nothing of scandal to report! It is just that while reading more and praying in a more structured way my views are changing slowly.
Not my belief .
Not my core faith that I am here to Love and serve the Lord but that maybe I am seeing a broader vision of what I might be called to do.
I know we are all called to do something in our life for God. It might be something enormous like sacrificing your own life to save others. We can’t all be Jane Haining.
Jane Haining was a missionary at a Church of Scotland-run school in Budapest when she was arrested by the Gestapo in 1944, having repeatedly refused to leave Hungary because she wanted to stay with her pupils. The frightened schoolgirls who watched her led away never saw her again.
But maybe we can be a bit more like the lovely lady who takes time each week to visit an old people’s home in Hastings to give a time of prayer and worship, not for any other reason but that she recognised the need for companionship and fellowship through familiar worship amongst those no longer in their own homes and communities.
Or the couple organising regular “HotDog runs” to the homeless in Brighton.
Yes evangelising but with actions to start with feeding and offering vital supplies to those just a little bit less fortunate than we are. Taking time to hear the needy, not only to feed them but to offer companionship, conversation laughter and the occasional clean pair of socks or warm hat.
Or like A Band of Brothers (ABOB). Mentoring young men who just need someone to take the time to walk alongside them. To encourage and point out sometimes right from wrong. With no judgement, no payment, just to see the potential in someone be encouraged and teased out.
Look them up! Best non-Christian organization I know of!
Others of us are merely called to be ourselves to live out a Godly life. Being kind to one another to live a peaceful existence following Gods rules and the example of his son.
I know we are not commanded to stand on the roof tops and yell how good we are and what a lot we have done for others for the Glory of God. I know it the little things we do to the glory of God that are noticed. I know our Father misses nothing, is all-seeing and to him we can only be honest and true with open clean hearts.
I also know that sometimes to forgive and move on you need to express your pain that anothers have caused you with their wrong doing.
Being Christian isn’t about accepting pain and hurt afflicted on us but at times with calm resilience to rise up and forgive by confronting the pain. Addressing the stumbling block that is clouding your judgement.
But what that do we do if we are not sure? What if we have followed all the guidelines and think you need to go one way but others think you need to go further in another direction? When do we stop listening for God to direct us and become guided by our egos?
Off to ponder that one.